Hi Ya Lovelies,
Tonight's blog is something I though I would never be writing about....I thought it would never end!
But Alas it now has and I'm SAD!
What am I talking about??
As most of you know I have a little girl named Addisyn....she is 2.3 years old and the apple of my eye.
She is also a breast feeder....a boobie addict!
It has been great feeding her as due to medical complications giving birth I wasn't able to successfully feed her 3 older sisters for very long.
Addy is the size of the average 18 month old so it didn't look or feel weird (to me) to be still feeding her.....although MOST people I know thought it was gross and I was the brunt of a many a boobie joke (must I say it was from males and women who haven't had kids yet!)
I am very proud I made it to 2 years and my original goal was 6 months but she was just to efficient at it....even self feeding if I wasn't paying attention!
Well anyway....today is day 3 of no feeds :(
And quite by mistake! Addy forgot to have a feed on the 2nd of this month....
I was amazed I wasn't engorged! She had built up quite a supply and if I went 8hrs without her feeding I was usually bursting :/
So I told myself I'd be strong while ever I wasn't engorged so we can do only one feed per day then finally drop the 1 feed so I don't get mastitis..(for the 6th time!)
I was happy to do this over as many months as it took.
We'll here we are and I'm still fine....No engorgement......weird!
Addy is still asking for it...but I have managed to get her distracted with cups of water/milk and a cuddle.
I should be rejoicing at having my body back but I'm REALLY sad!
I wish I'd have known her feed on the 1st of January was going to be her last one....I think I would have videoed it or something?
I know I would have snuggled with her a bit longer savoring the ultimate bond between a mother and child. :( :( :(
Gosh, I'm getting teary!
I guess my baby is all growed up!
I know my story is not one many of you will be able to sympathise 100% with....because the percentage of breast feeding after 1 is pretty low.
But I guess it's like the first day of school.....the feeling that your baby really isn't a baby anymore.
Maybe I'll let hubby get his way with baby number 5? Or not??!..